"You diligently study the Scriptures because you think that by them you possess eternal life. These are the Scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life." (John 5)
Come to Jesus. Consciously come to Jesus, O my soul, and let him give you life. Stop running. Just be with Jesus. Sit quietly. Listen. No agenda, no lesson sought after, no requests, no lists. Don't refuse. Life is with Jesus, not all these things. Go to him. Live.